Saturday, December 17, 2016
Friday, December 16, 2016
Thursday, December 15, 2016
Wednesday, December 14, 2016
Tuesday, December 6, 2016
Mondays...
When the meter in my car said 11 miles left to empty, I stopped for gas.
Granted, I didn't put a whole lot of gas in the tank, but when I started it up to leave it said 10 miles left to empty.
That's probably the worst gas mileage ever...
Monday, November 21, 2016
[112116] What's Dave Listening To?
Nothing that you couldn't listen to if you actually wanted to. YouTube Link:
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL2L8EunkUIoR_djgxd-7YViwMZPTnyNcJ
Check it out, or don't whatever...
Track List:
- 2. I MONSTER - Daydream In Blue 3:41
- Aaron Smith - Dancin (KRONO Remix) 4:17
- About You [directed by VASH] 4:39
- Active Child - Hanging On (Official Video) 5:53
- Active Child - Johnny Belinda [Official Video] 5:04
- Adriatique - Jekaterinburg (Original Mix) 4:24
- Ain't Nobody (Loves Me Better) 3:07
- Alexander Remus - Sheets (Feat. Liza Flume) 6:04
- Alina Baraz & Galimatias - Make You Feel 3:41
- Alina Baraz & Galimatias - Show Me (Animated Video) 4:23
- Alina Baraz & Galimatias - Unfold (Animated Video) 4:42
- Amber Run - I Found 4:36
- Amon Tobin - Easy Muffin 4:33
- Andrea Suglia - Everything Takes Time 8:13
- Apanemic - Like The Rain 4:45
- ASC & Synkro - Machine Love 6:01
- Bebe - Cocaine 4:18
- Belleruche - Clockwatching 4:40
- Ben Howard - Oats In The Water 5:00
- Biometrix feat Charli Brix - Hush (VideoHUB) 2:56
- Birds of Tokyo - Lanterns (Official video) 5:01
- Boards of Canada - Reach for the Dead (from Tomorrow's Harvest) 4:58
- Bondax - Gold (Snakehips Bootleg) 3:03
- Bonobo - Black Sands 6:50
- Bonobo - D Song 5:26
- Bonobo - Emkay 5:29
- Bonobo - Flutter 4:53
- Bonobo - Light Pattern 5:15
- Bonobo - Nightlite (Featuring Bajka) 5:10
- Bonobo - Noctuary 5:23
- Bonobo - 'Pick Up' 4:12
- Bonobo - Recurring 8:22
- Bonobo - Silver 6:37
- Bonobo - Sleepy Seven 5:18
- Bonobo - Stay the Same ft Andreya 4:45
- Bonobo - The Keeper (feat. Andreya Triana) 3:13
- Bonobo - The Plug (Quantic Mix) 6:18
- Bonobo : First Fires [Feat. Grey Reverend] - Official Video 4:39
- Bonus Points - NY Vibes 2:33
- Boogie Belgique - Forever & ever (official music video) 5:51
- Brownout - Laredo 77 3:47
- Chet Faker - I'm Into You (# Hashtag Remix) 4:50
- Chet Faker - Talk Is Cheap [Official Music Video] 3:40
- Clarinet Factory - Traincid 4:44
- Dancing With the Moon 4:33
- Dawn Golden - All I Want (Manila Killa Remix) 3:32
- Dawn Golden - All I Want (Official Music Video) 3:59
- Deela - El Mechánico 3:34
- Delilah - Inside My Love (Redlight Remix) 4:28
- Direct, MrFijiWiji & Holly Drummond - Trust In Me 4:31
- Disclosure - Flow (Music Video) | HD 5:12
- Disclosure - You & Me (Flume Remix) 4:41
- Disclosure-You and me (Flume Remix) NSFW 4:37
- Emancipator - "Ocelot" Official Music Video 4:25
- Emancipator - Anthem (2006) 5:31
- Emancipator - Diamonds 4:03
- Emancipator - Honey [2015] 4:00
- Emancipator - Kamakura 4:23
- Emancipator - 'Minor Cause' Remix ...a little treat ♥ 4:48
- Emancipator - Soon It will Be Cold Enough to Build Fires 3:37
- Emancipator "Minor Cause" Official Music Video 5:21
- Esseks - Tom n' Jerry 5:08
- Etherwood - Begin By Letting Go - Official Video 4:30
- Etherwood - Sunlight Splinters (Official Video) 4:20
- Fink - Nothing Is Ever Finished 5:59
- Fink - 'Shakespeare' (Official Video) 3:37
- Fink - This Is The Thing 3:39
- Fink - 'Warm Shadow' (Radio Edit) 3:32
- Fink - Yesterday Was Hard On All Of Us (Music Video) 5:00
- Float 4:30
- Floex - Forget-Me-Not 6:54
- Floex - Ursa Major 4:49
- Flume - Holdin On 2:36
- Flume - Left Alone feat. Chet Faker (Ta-ku Remix) 4:02
- Flume - Sleepless 3:29
- Flume - Sleepless feat. Jezzabell Doran 3:29
- Flume - The Greatest View (feat. Isabella Manfredi) 4:05
- Foot in the door - Fink 9:15
- Foreign Concept - 'Mob Justice' (CRIT058) Official Video 6:29
- FORXST - CRACK (from "CZELUŚĆ WOLUMIN #1") [NOW ON ITUNES & SPOTIFY] 2:30
- FORXST x JUTRØ - AUREA [Official Video] 4:14
- Frenic - Alright 4:23
- Glass Animals - Black Mambo 3:18
- Glass Animals - Gooey 4:52
- Glass Animals - Hazey 4:03
- GoGo Penguin - Hopopono (Official Video) [Gondwana Records] 4:03
- GoGo Penguin - Last Words [OFFICIAL VIDEO] 3:08
- GooMar - I Forgot Why 2:18
- gotan project - Época: un tango diferente 4:28
- Gramatik - Good Evening Mr. Hitchcock 4:21
- Gramatik - In This Whole World (Street Bangerz Vol. 3!) 3:55
- Grizmatik - My People 5:46
- Guib - Boiseries 3:20
- Guts - You're Living Like Pigs 4:31
- Guts- Cause We Understand 4:59
- Henry Krinkle - Stay (Viktor Varela Private Mix) (Music Video) 5:48
- Hidden Orchestra - 06 Reminder [2012] 5:59
- Hidden Orchestra - Antiphon 6:07
- Hidden Orchestra - Flight 7:51
- Hidden Orchestra - Footsteps 3:49
- Hidden Orchestra - Footsteps 3:48
- Hidden Orchestra - Tired and Awake 5:32
- Hippie Sabotage - High Enough (Halsey Flip) 4:01
- How to Handle Grown Ups - Ruckus Roboticus 4:50
- Hugo Kant - Dr Van Helsing 4:34
- Hugo Kant - In The Woods 4:36
- Hugo Kant - Morning Broadway (Keith Mansfield) 3:47
- Hugo Kant - So Why ? (Cuz Remix) 4:54
- Hugo Kant - This Old Tune (Blossom Remix) 4:59
- Husbands - "Dream" 3:51
- HWLS - 005 4:23
- IHF - Awake 3:27
- Instra:mental - Watching You 5:23
- James Blake : Overgrown 4:26
- James Brown - I feel good (Pretty Lights Remix) 5:21
- John Lemke - Walizka 4:22
- Julien Marchal - Insight XIV 2:29
- Julien Marchal - Insight XX 2:57
- Kaskade - Feeling The Night (HD) (HQ) Tokyo Driving 5:44
- Kaskade - Never Sleep Alone (Official Audio) 4:05
- Kaskade | Phoenix ft. Sasha Sloan | Automatic 3:56
- Kiasmos - Drawn (Official Music Video) 4:25
- Kiasmos - Gaunt (Official Music Video) 5:14
- Kiasmos - Held (Official Music Video) 5:46
- Kiyoko - Shinagawa 3:17
- Kollektiv Turmstrasse - Last Day (David August Revision) - Official Video 6:45
- Kollektiv Turmstrasse - Ordinary (Lake People's Circle Motive Remix) 8:20
- Koop - Koop Island Blues (OFFICIAL VIDEO) HQ 4:35
- Koven - Get This Right (Official Video) 3:45
- Lead Me Home - Jamie N. Commons 2:01
- Lebanese Blonde Thievery Corporation 3:23
- Lilly Wood & The Prick and Robin Schulz - Prayer In C (Robin Schulz Remix) (Official) 3:14
- L'Impératrice — VANILLE FRAISE ♗ 4:15
- Lost Frequencies - Are You With Me (Official Music Video) 2:17
- Mario & Vidis feat. Jazzu - I'll Be Gone (Music Video) 4:03
- Max Manie - Sunday (KlangTherapeuten Remix) 6:05
- Michael Lener - Boombox 3:18
- Midnight To Monaco - Suicide 3:19
- Mitrinique - High On Chocolate (Deepfunk Remix) 10:06
- MØ - Waste of Time 3:42
- Moon Boots - Love Strong (Music Video) | HD 5:10
- Mr Woodnote 'Wolf' 5:23
- MUTEMATH - Changes (Official Lyric Video) 3:54
- MUTEMATH - Clipping (with lyrics) 4:13
- n u a g e s - Dreams 5:33
- Neil Cowley Trio - Lament 3:08
- Neil Cowley Trio - Slims 3:49
- Neroche - Earth Druid 2:55
- Nightmares on Wax - Les Nuits 6:22
- Nightmares On Wax - You Wish 3:34
- Nils Frahm - Re (Official Music Video) 3:59
- Nosaj Thing "Eclipse/Blue" [Official Video] 4:30
- Nu & Jo Ke - Who Loves The Sun (Original Mix) 9:23
- Nym - Et Moi 3:46
- ODESZA - My Friends Never Die (Official Video) 3:17
- Of Monsters And Men - Dirty Paws (Official Lyric Video) 4:35
- Ólafur Arnalds - Near Light (Official Music Video) 3:30
- Paktofonika - Chwile Ulotne (instrumental) 4:38
- Panama - Always [Official Music Video] 4:03
- Phaeleh - Afterglow (feat. Soundmouse) 4:44
- Phaeleh - Lounge (FULL) HD 6:04
- Phaeleh - Numb HD-Video 7:57
- Phaeleh - Tokoi (Music Video) 3:16
- Phaeleh - Whistling in the Dark feat. Augustus Ghost 5:36
- Pilote - turtle (Bonobo mix) 5:16
- Poldoore - But I Do 3:59
- Poldoore - Honey Don't Cry 4:36
- Poppy Ackroyd - Glass Sea 5:12
- Poppy Ackroyd - Grounds 5:07
- Portico - '101' feat. Joe Newman (Official Video) 4:46
- Portico Quartet - Ruins 5:35
- Pretty Lights - Finally Moving 4:39
- Pretty Lights - Let The World Hurry By [Spilling Over Every Edge EP] 7:35
- Pretz - Chapel Stile 4:45
- Quantic - Life in the Rain 6:34
- Quantic - The 5th Exotic 4:08
- Quantic - Time Is The Enemy 3:42
- Question - Osanha 2:39
- Questlove - "Goodbye Isaac" 3:47
- Robert Miles & Trilok Gurtu - Loom 5:25
- Robert Miles (wt Trilok Gurtu)-Soul Driven. 5:04
- Röyksopp & Robyn "Monument" (Music Video) 6:49
- Ruckus Roboticus - Never play with scratches 6:20
- Ryan Leslie - Addiction ft. Cassie (Phazz remix) (Music Video) | HD 4:00
- Savages - You're My Chocolate 5:28
- Seba - Never Let You Go (Blu Mar Ten Remix) 6:43
- Shawn Lee's Ping Pong Orchestra feat. Nino Mochella - Kiss The Sky 3:39
- Shazz - Sit Down 3:45
- Sinkane - "How We Be" (Official Video) 4:20
- Sinkane - Runnin' (Official Video) 2:29
- skeletons - Mulatu 2:56
- Smallpools - Dreaming (Official Video) 3:41
- Sombear - Love You In The Dark I HD Unofficial Music Video 4:16
- Some (Nils Frahm) - Carmine De Martino 8:32
- Son Lux - "Easy" (Official Video) 4:32
- Soul Ballet - Exotique 4:09
- speak low - Booganova 4:19
- Start Shootin' 3:37
- Stereophonic Space Sound Unlimited - The Case 3:15
- Submotion Orchestra - Hard To Stay [Official Video] 3:57
- Submotion Orchestra Performance - Bass Music Awards 5:16
- Synkro - Acceptance (Official Video) 4:53
- Synkro - Angels 5:39
- Synkro - Departure (Med School Music) 3:54
- Synkro - Lost Here - (Ft. Manos) Picture SlideShow 5:24
- Synkro - Presence 5:29
- Synkro - Progression (Indigo Remix) HQ 5:19
- Synkro & Robert Manos - Lost Here 5:23
- Synth Sense - Lost In Time (Synkro Remix) 6:03
- T.Williams - Think Of You Ft. Tendai (Music Video) | HD 5:00
- The Architect - Les Pensées 3:59
- The Bomb (All India Radio Featuring Steve Kilbey) 3:00
- The Cinematic Orchestra - Arrival of the Birds 2:38
- The Jazzual Suspects - This Beat (Original Mix) 4:51
- The Link Quartet - Spider Baby feat. Eddie Roberts 3:34
- The Neighbourhood - Sweater Weather 4:13
- The Paper Kites - Bloom (Official Music Video) 3:34
- The Sound Defects - Take Out 4:47
- Thievery Corporation - Amerimacka 5:42
- Thievery Corporation - Until the Morning 3:56
- Tove Lo - Habits (Stay High) - Hippie Sabotage Remix 4:24
- Tove Lo - Not On Drugs 3:05
- Train Ride in Japan 3:48
- Trentemoller - Miss You 4:04
- Trentemøller: Moan (Official music video) 3:33
- Una musica brutal - Gotan Project 4:13
- Vance Joy - Riptide (FlicFlac Edit) 5:40
- Vance Joy - 'Riptide' Official Video 3:25
- Wax Tailor - Lost The Way 4:48
- Wax Tailor (feat Aloe Blacc) - Time To Go 3:09
Saturday, November 19, 2016
Procrastinate Tomorrow
Whenever I have a long list of things to do and I'm feeling particularly unmotivated , I find it helpful to compile the things I have to do into a list.
Then I look at the list and figure out which task would be the easiest to start with.
And that's the one I start my laziness with.
Tuesday, November 15, 2016
Blow Me Down
The ability to receive blows and endure is as important as the ability to deliver them precisely.
d(-_-)b
Pride in the Name of Love
I would hope that if ever you saw that I was in peril, and especially if I failed to recognize it, that you wouldn't refrain in your efforts to save me simply for the sake of sparing my pride.
d(-_-)b
Carry That, Wait
You cannot move into the unlimited hope of your future while carrying the burdens of your past.
Our past is redeemed in our future only if we learn from it, leave it where it lies, and then move on.
The past is gone,and so may it remain...amen.
d(-_-)b
Shadow Boxing
There are, as I have noted in the past, two positions that people may be in that will render them unpredictable because all logic is lost and any course of action might seem just as reasonable as any other.
There is the person who stands to lose everything by not acting. They are motivated by fear above all, prone to hasty and irrational decisions.
Then there is the one who has everything to gain. They stand to lose nothing, and all fear is gone for they have already lost whatever had previously motivated them to reasonable actions.
Until recently however occasion had never arisen for me to believe that they are not necessarily two mutually exclusive positions and that they infact could possibly be one and the same person.
It is an interesting thing to consider, as no one who is insane believes themselves to be so. Every, and in this case almost any, course of action would seem perfectly rational and logical to them...
Anything is possible now.
So we wait to see what exactly plays out and in what moment insanity can no longer be restrained from action.
Who knows what lurks in the shadows of men's hearts? No one can truly know their own capabilities and capacities until they have arrived at the edge of their own limits and find themselves at the point of testing who they might really be.
Perhaps capable of acting with unimaginable beauty and grace or with horrific ugliness, but either beyond what they thought they may be capable of previously.
Of this much I am certain though, that both fear and the lack thereof make anything possible in the right circumstances at the right moment.
What will we be when that moment comes? That is the question.
Monday, November 14, 2016
Sunday, November 13, 2016
Money is no object
So, they asked me if I had any dietary restrictions, and I said," Well, I guess my biggest dietary restriction would be money." I got the feeling that's not what they meant.
d(-_-)b
Saturday, November 12, 2016
Thursday, November 10, 2016
Hear and Now
People in general hear through the lens of perspective, experience and understanding.
Most can't actually hear at all over the volume of their own agendas continually playing in the background of their thought processes.
No one wants to believe they're the bad guy, even if everyone sees that they are exactly that. Whatever we fail to see in ourselves is blindness or denial, and what we see in others might be the better measure of what is to be found within us.
As I always say, if you are offended perhaps you should be, but probably not for the reasons you are. Consider not that you’re offended, but the nature of your offense, and offense too may find a place in personal growth.
Rise Above with Love
Solo Cristo Salva
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Wednesday, November 9, 2016
G Low
It can be difficult, I know, but be very careful not to confuse your sensibilities with your sensitivities.
Fear vs Love
By both lesser fears and greater loves will people seemingly act irrationally. However, only love can serve as it's own motive without regret for lack of reward.
Monday, November 7, 2016
Prayer in Schools
As long as there are tests in school, there will certainly be prayer in school. I don't see what all the fuss is about.
Sunday, November 6, 2016
Seasonal Reasoning
Remembering to keep the Christ in Christmas for a season would be less of an issue if we remembered to keep the Christ in Christian all year long.
Bb
What might change in the world if we could humble ourselves enough to consider that our cup might only find itself filled as the resulting over flow of someone else's cup and the fortunate proximity of our own? Isn't that how grace works so often though, those benefiting blissfully unaware of those bestowing?
Friday, November 4, 2016
Thursday, November 3, 2016
You Better, You Bet
No one can make it all better if you can't, but there are a whole lot of people willing to help you discover out how you might do just that.
Eye For Get
I used to believe the expression that you learn something new everyday. There's plenty of days that, not only do I not learn something new, but I actually forget stuff. d(-_-)b
Wednesday, November 2, 2016
Wah?
Sometimes asking people to clarify, saying that I don't understand or simply saying "What?" doesn't mean any of those things at all. Sometimes it's me just making sure that what I'm about to do/be is a decided course of action rather than a gut reaction.
Politica Mortem
Who else but a politician could feel like it's OK to send me email after email, telling me how much they want me to choose them, that they care about and understand me, that they will listen to me and represent my best interests, and then close with," Do Not Reply". Doesn't that just about tell us everything we should already know about the system? d(-_-)b
Blanksgiving
Thanksgiving is coming & I'm sure we could all list many things for which we are thankful, but it's not always the thought that counts, sometimes action is required. As you take inventory this month, also take time to show your thankfulness by anonymously blessing others that have been a blessing to you. You will come to to truly understand the blessing in giving and the shallowness of taking credit. To God be the glory. Solo Cristo Salva d(-_-)b
Heed and Hard
Remove feeling from thinking, and you remove the heart. Remove thinking from feeling, and you lose the head. The body requires both to live. d(-_-)b
Tuesday, November 1, 2016
That Was a Very Good Question
When you are the source of so much discontent and suffering for those whom you wish only the best.
When you give everything of yourself, including your hopes and dreams, to be more and provide more, only to realize even your best efforts could never satisfy the need for more.
When the one you desire most has made it abundantly clear that you are the one they desire least and they have become untouchable.
When you are the subject of shame and ridicule to the ones you love, as they laugh behind your back.
When you once believed you could and would do everything for those around and they leave you feeling like you can't do anything at all.
When you cannot give enough.
When you cannot be enough.
When your presence is irrelevant and unwelcome.
When at last all hope subsides and you are finally forced to accept that failing will only ever be what you can succeed at.
It is then, in that moment you begin to explore avenues and options you might never before have considered.
If failure is the best and worst you can do what have you to lose?
Nothing you haven't already.
When you reach that point of desperation when you simply need to know that all hopelessness will one day end, the misery of those around you and you at its source...
That is when the life stealing smoke filling your lungs with slow certain death will remind you, this is not forever, only for now.
Nobody smokes because everything is awesome.
Test Tickles
The doors were bolted
And the windows latched
Mistaken pronunciation
As we sat and watched
Or Chasm
The goal isn't two entities divided, functioning individually.
The goal is two individuals united functioning as one entity.
The difference is vast...
The Producers
Every item in the produce section as natural and organic as they may be, are not there coincidentally.
They are there as the result of intentional, difficult, and long term efforts toward a desired effect.
The product of cultivation and hard work to ensure all the right conditions were made available for the intended crop to flourish.
Yet, in spite of all this effort, no one regards them as any less natural or organic...
They just enjoy.
As it should be.
Sunday, October 30, 2016
The Object of Your Affections
I couldn't say for sure, but once in a while, it doesn't seem like it would be so bad to be objectified by someone.
Sweet Dreams Lover
She's the sort of girl that will make you tell her how much you love her, while she tears your heart out of your chest in front of everyone, just to watch it beat once or twice before leaving you for dead.
The kind of seductive unattainable beauty who walks the line between flirting and foreplay when you see each other, privately and publicly & then doesn't know why you're so confused and frustrated when she tells you she just wants to be friends, but never stops her games.
She whispers in your ear that you that you have a future with her if you could just commit, and though you knows she's probably lying, you believe her because you want to. So you fuck up all your other relationships to take her up on her promise.
All the while, everyone watches you together, never saying a word. Oh, they know who she is, and what she does, and with a pretty fair idea of how your relationship will go, they let you go on because who could stop you? So they smile and give you the thumbs up as you walk by... hoping.
Right now you feel wonderful.
This beautiful bitch for some reason seems to want you.
Until one night, when you find a note on your pillow that she's changed her mind. She's made mistake.
She's left you for another, much uglier and unworthy asshole.
Sweet dreams lover...
Yours Never,
Music
Saturday, October 29, 2016
Friday, October 28, 2016
Noise Pollution
White Noise Generator: TED Talks, Yoga Prices, Burning Man, iPhones, Facebook Memes, Indie Breweries, Obscure Bands, Beards, Tattoos, Politics, Movies, Television, Bands, Fashion...
Neck Down
If you have only strength you will hide your weakness when showing them could have increased your strength exponentially.
What Success Looks Like
I don't imagine that anyone at the time looked at Jesus hanging on the cross with admiration or envy as they congratulated him on his success.
Solo Cristo Salva
50 Shades of Beige
I think that's what I'd call my book...
50 Shades of Beige: What Everyone Except Me Already Knew
It would probably be a compilation of all the bullshit advice I've given people and how I came to learn it over and over again, but differently each time.
Maybe one of the chapters would be:
"You'll Never Make Anyone Happy"
(That's how it was recently put to me so succinctly by a friend of mine and they were absolutely correct.)
It might be outlined like this:
You ARE responsible for your own happiness.
You are NOT responsible for anyone else's happiness.
You ARE responsible for your actions.
You are NOT responsible for anyone else's.
Why carrying the burden of someone else's happiness is unfair to you.
How carrying the burden of someone else's happiness is unfair to them.
The freedom of failing and then giving up.
Yep.
I think that would pretty much cover the major points, but there would be a great deal of material in each of those points.
None of which will I afford you here.
But here's the chapter summary:
If you want to find yourself becoming something you never imagined you could and you want the people around you to treat you the way you never thought they would, live you're life and make every decision like you're the one that can make them happy. Then have the expectation that they are doing the same for you as intensely as you are.
Know that they also believe that they are the ones that will make you happy, as though they would, could or were at all as concerned about it as you.
This I have learned, is a certain way to find yourself in a really fucked place, a really fucked up person, and surrounded by other fucked up people.
And ALL of it will fall back on you at some point.
This is something that everyone already knows and will learn over and over again if they're anything like me and that's why it would be in my book.
Of course, this is only one way of many to fail, and I have a whole blog right here with many others if you're looking. All of them based on personal experience.
But failing doesn't make you a failure.
That's what I tell myself anyway.
That said, if you aren't actually looking for ways to fail, in this particular case, simply unload the undue burden.
Carry and own your shit and yours alone, and let / make others do the same.
You'll all be better for it and who knows the situation just might be reversible, but who really knows...
Solo Cristo Salva
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Thursday, October 27, 2016
Own It
Original Status: Often times, those most certain of their sanity, are generally those least qualified to claim it.
Translation: Spend enough time surrounded by the insane and you will eventually come to question your own sanity.
Resolve: That you are still able to question your sanity, should indicate that you are not too far removed to retain it.
Hang in there...
Tuesday, October 25, 2016
Try To Hang In There
Sometimes in life we are so consumed with overwhelming feeling about someone or something and we are certain it will always be the case.
We can't imagine not feeling that way forever or what life would be like if we were not to have the current object of our affections at the center of our affections.
Until one day you realize how unhealthy your life has become as a result, and your love has becomes your leash.
Becoming more and more resigned to your fate, you wake up one day, something has changed within and suddenly you realize what you already knew... that you actually have a choice in the matter if you take it, and in that moment if not soon thereafter, those feelings are gone.
You can recall them but they are vague and fading fast, and before you even realize it, you can breath again.
Brace yourself though, as no master gives up his servant without a chase.
Monday, October 24, 2016
We were not born of our own free will
Over the past few years I've come to conclude that guilt and obligation are burdens that we carry by our own consent and nothing else.
This morning I was thinking about that a little more and I wondered if obligation can be something that we should carry because of things to which we had no choice but find ourselves simply being.
For example do we have an obligation to other humans simply by virtue of the fact that we are humans something which we had no choice in being?
Beauty is in the Eye of the Creator
What is a real man?
What is real art?
Who can truly say?
I know of 66 books that show us real men, and not many of them are good.
It's not hard to be a real man.
The bigger challenge is in being a good man.
Those are rare in deed.
Volume and Velocity
If we believe that suicide is a sin then we need to ask ourselves, "What is suicide?"
Sometimes suicide is a trip to the convenience mart, or bite at a burger joint.
Sometimes suicide is a cigarette, or the obligation to finish that drink or meal.
Sometimes suicide is just unnecessary risk, hasty decisions or flippant regard for consequence.
Sometimes suicide is a slow bullet called love, or quitting your dreams.
Suicide is any decision made in a moment of time because we've lost sight of even the possibility of hope for all moments of time.
It is easy for the living to judge the actions of the dead.
To condemn the person who in a single moment pulled the trigger takes no real efforts, sacrifice or empathy.
It is difficult for the living to refrain from judging the actions of the living.
Not to condemn the person who, in every moment pulls the trigger takes real effort, sacrifice & empathy.
We are all sinners none of us more or less deserving of either mercy or judgement, Heaven or Hell.
Think about it as though something very big depends on it... because it does.
Solo Cristo Salva
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10-24-13 Thoughts
Do Lawyers believe in free will?
Once you begin dialating are you contractually obligated to your Obstetrician?
I've never heard of a trash collector getting canned, must be great job security!
Most accidents involving drills happen when people become bored.
El Bow Gris
It's damn hard work to be friends with me, I know. Consequently however, I've just realized, I know a lot of people who don't seem to mind a little hard work.
10-24-09 Let's Start A Fire
Let’s start a fire in the desert. Let’s make it big. Let’s drink, and sing and forget about this big bad world for just one night.
You can play guitar and I will bring a drum, while the rest of them just dance.
Let’s party like Christ himself was right there with us, in the flesh. There must have been those nights for him and his boys. A night to let loose. A night not to care. Just one night, and it would end with moment of clarity and peace.
Tired and content, we would watch the sun come up as the fire smouldered, and we might not say a word as we cleaned up, but we would always have that one secret night that would bond us, even if we never saw each other again. The one night we would remember forever, and think of whenever we heard mention of the other, and smile.
As we drove home we we would know, not just in our heads but with every ounce of our being, that we are not alone in our struggles, That others saw in us the potential we had never seen in ourselves. That we could be free if we only chose to be. That we are loved as we are, and that we are capable of loving.
That no matter how it feels at times, we are in fact moving in the right direction and it’s all worth it, no matter how difficult it is or how it turns out, because it’s not about arriving, it’s about the journey.
Renewed, we would be overwhelmingly happy to come home and hug the ones we love like it was the first time all over again.
Let’s start a fire…for the rest of our lives.
d(-_-)b
And Also With You
It is greater to lead a life of failure in pursuing God than to lead a life of success in failing to pursue him. Knowing that failure is not defeat, and success is not victory, may you fail many times. d(-_-)b
Sunday, October 23, 2016
In Tolerance
It's a curious thing to consider, when I look back over the years those things in life to which my tolerance has changed and which things have had a changed tolerance toward me.
Do All Things Without Bitching
Tell me only what you are for and I will know what you are against. Tell me only what you are against and that is all I will know of you.
Saturday, October 22, 2016
Knife the Mac
They say that when God closes doors he open windows... which is why I don't use Apple products.
db
Thieves And Liars
Treat everyone with the respect that anyone speaking the truth with integrity deserves, and you will find anyone lacking in either is quickly revealed.
1 Week 1 Day 150 mg
A week ago from yesterday I discovered that I might just be immortal.
Sorry for those of you who are stuck with me.
The Majestic Bull (Pt 2)
Something within me has snapped.
I'm not sure if it has snapped out of place or back into place.
I suppose only time will tell which is the case.
The Short Story
Allow me to be who I am to and I will allow you to be who you are.
If that is enough for us to have relationship worthy of pursuit, all the better.
If it is not, then so be it and without regret on either end.
Time for both of us is far too short for chasing shadows.
Friday, October 21, 2016
Thursday, October 20, 2016
On This Day In History
Tuesday, October 18, 2016
The Case of the Ebb and Flow
Wrote this after a CA vacation.
The year and date are in there.
Haven't taken a vacation in well over a decade.
Maybe that'll change.
For now here's a great memory I think I really need to recapture and soon.
Monday, October 17, 2016
Everyday Ends in Why
Not begging for what should be given willingly.
Not taking what should be shared mutually.
Thursday, October 13, 2016
Solitaire
That's the name of the game.
Fucking Solitaire.
How much more obvious did it have to be before I realized that?
Good & Well
There are times that I feel like I'm doing good, and times that I feel I'm doing well and occasionally there are times that I feel I'm doing good and doing it well.
Monday, October 10, 2016
Boo!
Q) What did the mother bird say when her babies complained about dinner?
A) I'm sorry I even brought it up...
Power of de Nile
Never underestimate the power of denial, for the greatest lies we tell are those we tell ourselves. d(-_-)b
Constrictive Criticism
If we cannot embrace the constructive criticisms of those who are for us now, how should we expect to weather far greater attacks from those who are against us later? For as steel sharpens steel, one man sharpens another. d(-_-)b
Saturday, October 8, 2016
Fugit
I'm really just about on the edge of not caring about jack anymore, whatever.
Let the world and everyone in it have its way.
Give them what they're asking for.
I'll be dead soon enough.
The Hear and Now
Some may actually like what they hear, but most will simply hear what they like.
I am only responsible for what I say, not what you hear.
db
Absolute Zero, Absolute Hero
There is this ever changing standard of rationalization that I hear people refer to often. The standard of "better than" and "worse than" in contrast to others. It's a dangerously slippery slope to travel. One that leads to unwarranted and unmerited content or discontent. Whatever it leaves us feeling it is fleeting at best and based only in our own imaginations. Our standards should be based in absolutes that can provide us with either a mark to know when we have arrived or a measure of how much further we have to go. Aim higher. Be better. d(-_-)b
Don't Be A Dick
Although the two are often confused, there are vast differences between judgment and discernment. Especially regarding public exchanges, as I see it, insults are the first line of defense for the ignorant, and hatred a deflection by those who live in fear of facing in themselves what they point out in others. While being polite & articulate alone, will not make your case, it can make others more willing to atleast try to understand it. For those whom this status may prove to be "too cerebral", I will use shorter words...being a dick is simply not a convincing argument. d(-_-)b
Friday, October 7, 2016
Don't! Stop believing!
Don't believe everything you've been told.
Don't believe you've been told everything.
History Always Repeats
No one's historical documentary will be incomplete because you enjoyed the moment rather than documenting it.
Thursday, October 6, 2016
Hardly Ever Heard
Distance makes the heart grow fonder
Tuesday, October 4, 2016
In Accuracies
If you're not all that particular about results and you want to save a couple of bucks, you should check out inaccupuncture. db
Sunday, October 2, 2016
Wars Can be Driven
I recently learned that over the past 35 years cars have killed more people than the combined total deaths of all the wars over the past 300 years...which makes me think we've been going about this war thing entirely the wrong way. d(-_-)b
Tired and Awake
Think what you will
You cannot be still
Not even for a minute
What burns will burn
The world still turns
And we are turning with it
-db
Tuesday, September 27, 2016
Pro-Choice
It is easy to make poor choices when we are able to distance ourselves from their consequences or feel we are completely impervious to them at all.
But I will tell you this, there are always consequences for them. They usually manifest longer than we thought and in ways we could not possibly have imagined at the time.
Most often we are not the only ones who bear the cost of them.
Saturday, September 24, 2016
Ask a Smoker
Ask any smoker why they smoke and I'll guarantee you the answer will never be, " because everything is fucking awesome."
Black Tea Matters
Allow me to clarify.
I am NOT condoning or condemning the Tea Party or the riots.
Between the two neither is "right" but both are understandable to me.
The Boston Tea party was a carefully organized protest with a select number of chosen participants & with a clear singular objective, in which white people disguised themselves as Mohawk Indians and destroyed a shitload of tea.
That no deaths occurred in that process is situationally incidental.
BLM riots have reprehensible collateral damage, the blame falling under mob mentality as I can see.
They have one singular motivating agenda, but the problems are vast in nature and deeply rooted in culture.
They are meant to address globally what peaceful protest has not accomplished individually.
I have not, will not, condone or condemn either, but I understand them both.
And let's be real at the time the tea party was pretty fucking radical.
Allow me to add that:
[1] The tea party addressed financial and political issues.
[2] The riots are primarily addressing the cultural and moral issues that have begotten the political issues
[3] Both address ethical issues.
[4] The Tea Party folks were a long way off from their ruling government & none of them were ever caught. But let's be real, if they had real balls they wouldn't have tried to give the Mohawk's the blame. But you know, Red privilege and all, they probably had it coming.
The Tea Party's object
Again...
https://thsppl.com/its-not-about-race-fb140bac8f1#.elq6o1dfr
Friday, September 23, 2016
Beer John Letter
Dear Alcohol,
Please don't misunderstand me.
I do still love you very much.
You intoxicate me.
It seems the feeling isn't mutual however and I can really only count on you to be with me when I have money.
That hurts...
I'm not breaking up with you though.
I'll be back next payday.
Sincerely,
db
People and Places
There is always the next thing
Avoiding the certain next thing
Only ensures the uncertain next thing
But there is always the next thing
Until there is only the last thing
Until there is at last nothing
Jealous Again
Jealous of cats
Jealous of phones
Jealous of kids
Jealous of dogs
Jealous of Facebook
Jealous of movies
Jealous of shows
Jealous of bands
Thursday, September 22, 2016
You Say Tomato
Although almost no one notices it, it is far more likely, and far more common, for a man to die slowly over the course of his life from the sufferings of a million pin pricks, than being allowed to die in a single moment by the blow of a sword.
Onlookers will marvel and admire the man who dies dramatically in a single moment and yet scratch their heads trying to comprehend a man's mundane lifetime of endurance while they continue to stick even more pins into him.
Between what is right and what is wrong in my life, what is wrong is probably very minor comparably, and in the grand scheme, inconsequential without a doubt...
But still, I'll be damned if those little pin pricks don't hurt like hell. They take their toll those tiny drops of blood.
Two Rights Don't Make a Wrong
I have said it before and I will say it again. Everyone thinks they are right. That much is expected, but it is unimportant and unnecessary most of the time, to persuade anyone else of that. Let your own certainty be enough to satisfy your pride. If you are compelled to do so simply present your case and move on. You do not need to, and could not possibly right all the wrongs of this world.
Better yet, if your ego allows, remain silent and listen without concern for response. You may discover a perspective you couldn't possibly have even considered.
We are limited by our own experience, but we certainly don't have to be. Just as two wrongs don't make a right, two rights don't always make a wrong.
I have found that some of the most crucial pieces of advice in the Bible require us to simply be still and silent so that God may work. He does not require our assistance, though He may allow it. Shift your focus and you will see that you are more likely to see His work by looking internally than externally.
Men may convince the mind, but it is God that convicts the heart.
Just a thought...
Tuesday, September 20, 2016
Why Not
If we treat people as they are, we make them worse. If we treat people as they ought to be, we help them become what they are capable of becoming.
Monday, September 19, 2016
The Road to Hell
Helpful people aren't always well intentioned.
Buyer beware.
Hardly Ever Herd
Honesty and truthfulness are not at all the same.
In fact one can be both honest and truthful and still be deceitful.
Just something to remember...
Tuesday, September 6, 2016
Idiotique
The great irony of depression/ deep pain is that those times that you would probably benefit most from talking to someone are also the times you feel least like talking to anyone.
It's cyclical, a downward spiral.
Reaching out means mailing yourself vulnerable on a level that is easily violated by anyone lacking empathy even with the best of intentions.
Alone in a crowd, you look for people, who might be looking back. Any sort of hint or clue, anyone who might understand, but how would you ever know if you found them since neither of you would say a word without that certainty.
Confiding in strangers may help for a time, and I have found that there can be a great comfort and bond with those who may share a mutual affliction, but there is far less often resolution.
So there you are stranded on a beautiful tropical island with plenty of sunshine and fish abounding. Paradise to anyone else, but you are the albino allergic to fish.
You don't need sunshine, you need shelter.
You need someone who's already been where you're at, come out the other side, to help you find your way.
That's not easy.
Find someone who can be silent and still without judgement or the need to fix you. Find someone who will listen, and that is the first step in finding someone to whom you should probably listen.
Monday, September 5, 2016
Saturday, August 20, 2016
Gandhi Thinks You're an Asshole
Whenever I see Christians post that quote from Gandhi "I like your Christ. I do not like your Christians..." I wonder if what they're saying is (a) If Gandhi calls you an A-hole that's awesome & you should post that publicly! or (b) I'm pretty sure the quote would have been much different if Gandhi had just met me first. Either way it baffles me. BTW the quote actually qoes on to say this: "...Your Christians are so unlike your Christ. The materialism of affluent Christian countries appears to contradict the claims of Jesus Christ that says it's not possible to worship both Mammon and God at the same time."
Monday, August 15, 2016
Doctor Frankenstein's Monster
The kids started school the Monday following the crash.
That first morning, unintentionally, I made one of Maddy's schoolmates (Race) cry on the playground before school.
When came up to say hi to me, with unbound enthusiasm, he too one look at my face and immediately buried his face in his mom's belly and started crying.
I've never thought of myself as good looking, but that was an all time low.
Making children cry at the mere sight of me. :(
Originally published 8/15/11
Friday, August 12, 2016
Monday, August 8, 2016
5 Words: I'm Glad I Met You
Life takes a lot more effort for some of us. Someone's best may bear a striking resemblance to your worst, and for some people it takes everything within them just to keep going.
It's easy to forget that, but you never really know what's happening deep beneath the surface and the depth of impact that a couple of words, or a simple gesture will make in the life of someone else.
So consider this: At any given time, when you have stopped realizing that anyone else sees and hears you, they do, and in that momemt you may be the tipping point for someone in realizing their fullest potential... and that's not always good.
Love
It should be the one agenda that trumps every other, sometimes that includes logic.
Logical is about the last thing Jesus was to the people that met him and I can find no logic in the work of the cross, simply grace. Love cannot be our motive if it's not our method as well.
Do everyone a favor then, if you can't be kind, at least be constructive, and if you can't manage that much then try to silently pass unnoticed.
Be good to yourselves, be good to each other.
d(-_-)b
People, Places, Things
Once upon a time in a far away land there were things that could be fixed and they were worth fixing. And so that's what people did, to their stuff and to their relationships.
Knowing that what is treated like garbage eventually becomes garbage, they took great care in how they treated both and every thing and every body lived happily ever after.
The End
Wednesday, August 3, 2016
Why People Hate Salesmen
Going into business to provide a good or service may yield money.
Going into sales is only about the money.
The Tightrope Walker
Learning to walk a tightrope is the greatest chance you'll have for success in achieving a happy life.
Good Enough for Now
The problem with "good enough for now" is that life gets busy and often is the case that "good enough for now" becomes "good enough forever" until it's not.
Wednesday, July 27, 2016
Saturday, July 23, 2016
From the mouths of babes…
Me) Hey Sofie, whatcha got there?
S) A shobel.
Me) That’s right and what can you do with a shovel?
S) You dig with it.
Me) That’s right. Can you do anything else with a shovel?
S) You can throw it away.
d(-_-)b
1/19/12
Of What Value is Doing Our Best?
It was in the summer between my 9th and 10th grade years, that I made a commitment, that I did not make lightly, that even now, these many years later, I am yet to understand the full nature of. My commitment was to God what or whoever that was.
Prior to that point in my life, I had not darkened the door of a church to my recollection, nor had I been raised with the thought that there might have been a God to even be considered in all of this. My parents, if anything at all, were anti-God, as they had made very clear, and yet it was they who suggested that I check out church. You can imagine my confusion and I’m sure they had their reasons, but I have yet to find them out…
I was young, to be sure, but I was determined, however misdirected I may have been, to honoring that commitment.
Upon returning to school, my first year of high school, I made the decision that it would probably be best if I stopped getting high with my friends from junior high. As I should have expected, but didn’t, they dropped me like a hot rock when I told them of the commitment I had made over the summer as my reasoning behind not getting high with them. Somehow I thought we would remain friends, but I haven’t spoken to a one since.
There I was…alone…without friends at a brand new school…good or bad, is a matter of perspective, and that’s partially the point of this whole thing I suppose.
Over the years, I did my best to honor the commitment that I made that summer night on Mingus Mountain. I had determined that I would do my best to do for God, in whatever I saw needed to be done. I would live as righteously as one can. Given my understanding, age and background, I was reasonably zealous, if those two words can even be used together.
Throughout it all, there were times when I felt “closer to God” because I had what I considered to be good days, and times when I felt very distant from him because I had what I then perceived as terrible days. I was doing my best, but in the process I was missing the whole point, because I had been terribly confused about the true nature of my actions. While my motives were sincere, they were sincerely wrong. Hang in there, I’ll explain…
What I failed to understand was that an absolutely miserable and seemingly unproductive day, just might be the best and, oddly enough, the absolute most productive day one could possibly hope for, depending on which side of eternity you viewed it from.
During this period, I was involved with Campus Crusade for Christ, churches, youth groups, outreach ministries, all the usual stuff, I wanted it all. I wound up making many friends in high school who, in retrospect, understood a good deal more about what the life of a Christian should look like and far more so than many of the leaders I would wind up encountering throughout my Christian life.
What I learned during that time was primarily by osmosis, and through the teachings of what I would now say were for the most part very poor examples of Christ’s love and grace, for a kid like me who truly desired to understand it. Probably well educated, I assume they had been placed in positions of authority by virtue of their resume’s more so than any virtues they may have embodied. To this day, I do not recall a single teaching from them specifically, although I’m sure they did try on some level, just as I was trying.
That is except for one man, DJ Roman. He was my Christian seminary teacher in high school, and he made all the difference in my grasp of understanding the love of Christ. His heart was pure in his efforts, and in spite of my being extraordinarily rough both in appearance and social skills, while so many others including my parents were quick to judge and reject me, he accepted and welcomed me as I was. Teaching me as best he could the grace of God, and fundamentals of the faith.
In those years, I was the drummer for a band called, No Laughing Matter. A Christian band, that in the era of extraordinarily bad Christian music and cheesy lyrics, pushed a lot of those boundaries to the limit.
Not much of it seems so radical now by comparison, and I can’t even say with any certainty that we were either in a good or bad position with God at this point in our lives. We saw the need for change and the vigor and naiveté of youth made us believe we could be that catalyst. Whatever our position with God may have been, I do know that he used that band, despite of our many short comings, to do many good things for others.
However, at the age of 23, everything changed…my works, because that’s exactly what they were, came to their natural fruition, and my world came crashing down.
I won’t go into details here, because that isn’t necessarily relevant. The fact of the matter is, a world crashing down comes in as many appearances and definitions as there are numbers of people in any number of various given situations.
Whatever that may look like and however one arrives at this point, it is reaching this “bottom” as some would say, that winds up being the defining moment in the lives of many people. I believe it is simply because at this point, we learn who we truly at our core are because we are at our most raw and least afforded the use of our faculties in predefining which direction we will turn for resolve.
It seems we either 1) Do what comes most naturally, staying with the dysfunction we know and further our own fates, or 2) We wind up facing the unavoidable ugliness of ourselves and moving in unfamiliar directions for resolution because nothing else has worked.
Here’s how I got to number two….
Absolute bottom for me was found quite late, on a rainy night. That night I sat in my truck and cried, heartbroken and just plain broken, while I poured out my heart to God. I quit.
I quit trying, and I quit hoping, to do what I thought was right by my own efforts.
My best efforts had brought me here, and if this was the best I could hope for, I decided that I would no longer choose, based on my perceptions of right and wrong, what I should do or not do.
I had done what I thought I had been taught to do in all of those functions I mentioned above, and none of those teachings and systems had gotten me anyplace better, than those who had absolutely no regard for those systems. In fact, many of those people who disregarded God entirely, it seemed had fared much better for having done so. So why try at all? What value was there in doing my best?
Through it all, I made it quite clear to God that while I still believed in him, if there were convictions to be had at all about right and wrong, good and bad, sin and righteousness…if any of that even existed at all, then it was he that would now have to show me quite clearly, and then move me to following through with those things…because I quit!
I would quit seeking, quit trying, quit doing, I had quit being a “Christian” at least as far as I had understood what being a Christian to mean. I had seen where that had gotten me, and I hated it.
I made quite clear to God that he would now have to pursue me as I had pursued him and that he would have to show me that he desired my heart as much I desired his, or let me go, but until then, I would simply wait and go about my life in doing so.
However, as unexpected as it was, that is the moment that everything I knew about God moved from my head to my heart and my understanding of everything changed.
What I failed to comprehend was that God was in fact in pursuit of me all along…and that alone is what had brought me here, to this point.
That was the night, I began to understand what faith meant and what salvation was all about. That by my own might and will, I could not achieve a thing, and that was the purpose and message of the cross.
Surrender…
That I would say, of all the terms I might use, and there certainly are many others to be used, is the single most important term to come to grips with, in defining and comprehending what it means to be a true believer and follower of Christ.
The realization our vast need for God’s love, and his vast desire to love us, is the one and only thing that can turn the bondage we have come to associate with surrender, into a liberation we cannot begin to fathom outside of experiencing it.
Like so many lessons in life, to simply describe it does it injustice, if not actually cheapening it in the process.
For example, ask a mom what it feels like, the love for her children, and I can assure you that not even the most articulate of descriptions can come close to making you truly comprehend that love to the level that merely experiencing it does. She will make illogical, emotion driven decisions, that make no sense to those looking from the outside in, if she believes it is the best decision for her child. But to her, no sacrifice, no hope is too great in believing and desiring the best for her child, so those things make perfect sense to her. You would have to experience it to understand it.
And so I have found it is in matters of faith, mere words or actions will not convince anyone of what they are not ready to believe, in those matters of the heart and spirit, that God himself has not prepared them to believe.
That it seems, is the point I had arrived at.I was finally ready, although I could not have even fathomed that to be the case at the time.
I realize now, that often times it is our own self deception in thinking that we might understand the will of God, that proves to be our biggest stumbling block when we try to understand our place in it.
Like giving a predisposed answer based on what we think the question will be, when had we just taken a moment to be silent, and hear the issue through we would have found it to be an entirely different question all together.
I have found, through hindsight, that what I had often mistaken as feeling “closer to God” by virtue of my own efforts, was actually more of a sense of pride in having moved, maybe not away from him, but independently of him.
I felt in a sense justified. That some how I had found more favor with God than he had already shown before I even knew him, by doing something that might prove to him how good I am.
When the truth of the matter is, I am not good, not on any level, at least not by my own strength, and no one is. No matter how much we would like to believe otherwise.
Jesus himself asks at one point, why do you call me good? None are good except God. As a sort of exclamtion point to that, we can find that the bible also clearly states our righteousness is as filthy rags to God.
A bleak picture to say the least, if we think by any stretch of the imagination, that we might attain favor with God by doing some “thing”, be it of religious nature or charitable work. Our best efforts are in vain apart from God and certainly when it comes to thinking we might work our way into understanding his heart and out of our fallen state.
In consideration of the Christian belief that “man” was designed to be in relation with his creator, this independence in point of fact becomes the total opposite of the surrender we are called to have if we are to experience unity with him and know him in our deepest capacity.
What we can accomplish, independently from God, is of no value to our own relationship with him. That’s not to say that he will not use our efforts to his glory, but the bible clearly shows us that we do not have to be in accord with God’s plan to be used for his purpose. What I would say, what I have said, is that finding one’s self in that position is not an enviable place to be.
There is nothing we can give to God that he could not take because it is already his, and there is nothing we can do for God that he could not do for himself. Except for the willful surrender of our hearts, so that we might find ourselves in right relation to him…and that is his greatest desire. It seems, often times, the thought that we are capable of understanding the will of God turns out to be our greatest hindrance in being open to it, and truly believing that we know God’s will becomes the biggest cause of unknowingly working against it.
The greatest desire of the Christian should be that we might be used by him in accordance to his will, in whatever capacity that may be, to bring God alone the glory that he deserves. There can be no greater aspiration than this for those that believe.
And so we return to the question,”Of what value is there in doing our best?” Apart from God, none.Let us decrease so that he may increase.
d(-_-)b
Jumping the Shark
There comes a time, when one starts to realise that formerly not so distant memory of cool is something they will now have to experience vicariously through their children.
Especially when at a certain age, the adolescent eyeball roll begins to appear.
You know, the one that marks having gone a great distance past the point of no return, from the current definition of cool.
That is if ever one had been there at all…
…which is doubtful
Suffer The Children Unto Me…
Sometimes it’s good to be alone with one’s thoughts, but never for too long, and generally speaking, in my experience, the toughest part usually comes at the times that we should probably be talking to someone the most, but when we actually feel like talking least.
Words often fail us in our most desperate hours, for they alone are unable to fully express the depth of our emotions at our darkest hours, in our most vulnerable states.
Often our solitary contemplation leads to an anticipation which far exceeds the actuality of the circumstance, and we really just need some one to remind us, that we’re not crazy for thinking the thoughts we do and bring us back into the light from the solitude of our darkest places, so that we can keep moving forward through “it”, whatever “it” is.
In those times, I have found and would ask you to remember this: If you’ve thought it or experienced it, so have countless others, either now or in the past. Whatever the situation, I have found that getting through it, however we do that, in turn strengthens us and puts us in the place to help others by merely relating, if nothing else.
Never underestimate the bonds that are born of mutual affliction.
So talk, even and especially when you least feel like it, but even more important, listen; not as much to what’s being said, but considering more so what isn’t being said at all. Someone may be looking to you while you are looking to them.
An answer isn’t always what’s required, just someone who cares. Those people exist, and you may find that you could be that person for someone else if you just take the time look around.
Most suffering cannot be seen with the eye, but is seen from the heart.
It is not often to be heard with the ears, but rather it is heard by the spirit, and it is only ever understood by experience.
You are not alone.
d(-_-)b