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Tuesday, September 24, 2013

freedom from choice

Choose your enemies as wisely as you choose your friends. They're not always as far as part of you would like to think.

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

A Slippery Slope

We relate to things as we experience them and we experience things as we relate to them, but neither may be the actuality of things.

So we believe things to be a certain way because we are certain they are right.

Be careful however not to mistake the certainty in your own way of thinking as being certainty about God's way of thinking.

For how can we profess to seek God when we will not look beyond our own certainties?

Embrace the conflicting arguments, work through them. You find either strength that you are right, or correction from being wrong.

Saturday, September 14, 2013

Saturday, September 7, 2013

Thursday, September 5, 2013

Guys Like Me

Straight
White
Male
Protestant
Middle Aged
Omnivore
Not too conservative
Not too liberal

The sort of person you don't generally think about unless there's blame to assign or someone that needs to do more.

In Case You're Wondering

The Adderall has worn off and this is the worst time of day. The point when I can't shut it off. Sleep is the best thing that could happen to me now, but try as I might it doesn't come. Just endless thoughts. It's why I write this blog.

This is the time of day when everything positive becomes negative. Progress becomes regress, success failure, and every singular small problem becomes a collective insurmountable problem. There seems to be no point and nothing I seem to do is enough for anyone, including and especially me, and I have to wonder what the point of all this is.

Sometimes people ask me during the day, lightly, if I've taken my medication and I give them a sideways glance. I know they have no idea so I try to let it go. But it hurts none the less.

This is when every demon comes out to play.

It is now that my faith alone sees me through, but this is the time of day that is the biggest reason I don't own a gun.

Morning will come, but not soon enough. If it doesn't, well that's ok too.

Monday, September 2, 2013

Behold the Power of Denial

Everyone believes in something.

Believing you're right, and saying so isn't the problem, that's should be expected.

Believing in something means believing you're right.

Not listening because you believe you're right and cannot be otherwise... that is the problem.

Ignorance and ego is the mental equivalent of drinking and driving.

Someone always get hurt unless they get lucky.

It's Raining

Just had a great idea for a children's song.

It's about a feeble lonely old man that lives alone. One evening he has to run an errand, and goes out while its sprinkling, not thinking much of it.

On his return trip though the weather takes a turn and becomes torrential rain. With no other choice he begins to make a dash for home.

In a rush and almost home, he slips on his walkway and gets a concussion. In pain, and with blurred vision, he manages to pick himself up and get into the house where he's glad to be out of the storm.

Exhausted from the evenings activities he decides to turn in early. Sadly, not too long after going to bed he slips into a coma and dies.

Kids will sing that for years!
Wait, that's already been done.
My bad.

The Memeing of Life

Whenever I hear people say,"What you do when no one is looking, that's what you truly are." I always walk away feeling like shit.

pros and cons

The world is full of prose and cons.

Ant Eye

Tell me what you believe in, and I will know what you don't believe in. Tell me what you don't believe in and that is all I will know.

Mental Masturbation

If I am wrong, show me how and you will have helped me, but if you will only tell me that I'm wrong you have done so only to help yourself.

What's the word

Ignorance and ego: the mental equivalent of drinking and driving.

Sunday, September 1, 2013

Crash

Everyone once in a while my kids will notice the position of the sun, or the time on the clock, and they will ask me," Aren't you going to work tonight?".

They are always enthusiastic at my response when I remind them that I don't work at FedEx anymore and we're both happy that I'm home.

So, did I make the right choice?
Without a doubt.

You shall know the truth...

We must seek God void of the expectation of what we should find. To do otherwise is to seek the validation of self.

We must free ourselves from the preconceived notions ingrained in us from partial teachings or by those with with ulterior motives. These are the prisons of the religious, blinders of the soul, designed to enslave not to liberate.

While God may be found in religion, religion will not be found in God and God is what we should seek, not religion.

In the end whatever we may think of God is inconsequential in light of what God may think of us.

My prayer is that we seek and find God's peace along our journeys, rather than simply hoping for it at end of them.

... and the truth shall make you free.

Failure is not an option...

There came a certain freedom of movement, a careless ease, an brutal honesty, when I accepted the inevitable fact that failure is most likely my only option.

Once I began the journey of failing on my own terms, I found the key that unlocks many doors to success was that very acceptance.

So while failure may not be an option how we do it is.

Who Cares

Sometimes what we want is ruined at that moment in which we have to state it.

Sometimes what we need, is simply someone who cares enough to know what we want.

i Wonder

When you have children you feel things that you can never say, sometimes simply because they could never understand and other times because you would rather that your feelings not be s factor unless they consider them for themselves.

When I consider this, I often wonder...

How must God feel when He looks upon us, His children?

Delight, shame?
Joy, sorrow?
Pride, regret?

What must He think of the way in which we treat his creation, and each other?

Perhaps I will never.
Perhaps that's better.

Read the Book

“Animals don't behave like men,' he said. 'If they have to fight, they fight; and if they have to kill they kill. But they don't sit down and set their wits to work to devise ways of spoiling other creatures' lives and hurting them. They have dignity and animality.”
― Richard Adams, Watership Down