someone...

I need to believe that someone I believe in is someone that believes in me. That someone I love is in love with me, that someone I desire is someone that desires me... But alsas no, what I desire desires me least.

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Bed & Break Fast

If I ever start a bed & breakfast I'll call it the Inn Good Co.

In Good Co.

Begining to enjoy my own company, first required my own silence in the company of others.

I'm a Joker

When Egyptians get cancer, do they see an Ankhologist?

-namasdave

Do witches use spell check?

-namasdave

1,000 Mine Fields

The journey of a thousand mine fields, begins with a single step. Step carefully my friends.

-namasdave

2B

Of all the things I have or haven't been, and of all the things I may or may not be, there only a few that will leave me with regret. That regret however, will be great.

It Was A Very Good Week

Age takes the weeks that once felt like years, and turns that into years that now feel like weeks.

-namasdave

No Ragrets

As a much younger man, I always believed I would die without regrets.

I was more wrong than I could have guessed. 

The weight of it is heavier than I could have imagined.

Win or Lose, We'll Know Soon

The casualties are high, morale is down, and we've arrived at the balancing point...

To keep pushing through and fight until it ends one way or another, or to count our losses, walk away, and live to fight another day.

Be, Leave, the Gilded Cage

If you could believe, in this place at this moment, that whatever difficulty you're experiencing right now would be the worst thing that would ever happen to you...what would you do to see it through to the other side? I imagine quite a bit.

That said, it probably isn't the worst thing that will ever happen, but maybe, just maybe if you can get through this  you'll have what you need to get through the next worst thing, or perhaps the next worst thing won't seem so difficult.

Would you leave in the middle of a movie because you couldn't see how it might possibly end well? 

You paid the price of admission, you might as well enjoy the show.

All the world's indeed a stage and we are merely players

Performers and portrayers

Each anothers audience outside the gilded cage

-Rush

To quote 80's pop icon Howard Jones:

And maybe love is letting people be just what they want to be, the door always must be left unlocked.

To love when circumstance may lead someone away from you; and not to spend the time just doubting.

What is love anyway? 

Does anybody love anybody anyway?

(This picture has nothing meaningful to do with this post.)

T-I-Double G- ER

They say that disappointment is the result of unmet expectation. 

That being the case, then it seems to me that one sure way to ensure continually disappointed in anyone, is to leave your expectations unexpressed.

With And Without You

To live with and without simultaneously.

I'm Not the Rooster

Hide your head in the sand long enough & often enough, you'll start to notice that everything smells like dirt.

I don't know what I'm supposed to be anymore

I sure do miss being with you... not that what I feel matters that much ultimately. I wish you could talk to me as much as I wish I could talk to you. I've been a selfish asshole over the years, and for that I have named and admitted my sincere regret. You have also been a selfish asshole, but I have yet to understand your position  beyond the justification of why your actions are vindicated while mine are not at all.

AFI 2

I am aiming for indifference as a mark of growth, because sometimes not pursuing what you want is the only way to get what you want, if it was ever to be had at all.

AFI

Aiming for indifference is not what I thought I would aspire to as progress..

 and yet here I am.

Indifference As A Virtue

When aiming for indifference becomes my mark of progress, I have to wonder what is it I'm progressing toward?

Aiming for Indifference

It's all you can do when what you most desire is not yours to give it receive.

When Things Go Right

There's always that silent voice of mockery, asking me just how I'll fuck this one up...

Life's Support

If your support base says you can't, then what?

I want to be like Jerry

My theory: 

If you can't relate, it's not funny at all.

If you can relate too much, it's offensive.

The trick is to walk that very fine line, and that's the talent of a good comedian.

You've got to know your audience, and you've got to know yourself.

Too to Tango

If you don't have trust,

If you don't have respect 

If you don't have integrity

If you can't speak honestly,

If you can't reach out emotionally and feel safe to do so...

Well then what do you have?

Love?

Freedom From Choice

It's amazing what a person can live without when they begin to reframe previous needs as current wants so they can resign themselves to living without them.

-Namasdave

Validity

No longer looking for validation of who I am from people, that much is being revealed as I seek it. 

Now I am simply looking for validation of who I am to people, that much will be revealed whether or not I seek it.

-namasdave